Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Treasured Experience
September 30, 2008
I never really expected it to be that fun. It gave me that nice feeling i never had since I returned in school. We rehearsed the play for almost three months and I can say that the result is really, really worth it.
I used to say that maybe I won't ever love Teatro as much as the other members already do. I also used to wonder why they stay/ed in an organization when all it gives you are stress, depression and sleepless nights. But then, yesterday, I understood. I now know why many Teatro members love and sacrifice almost everything for it.
To our director, Sir Dennis Marasigan, thank you so much for the lessons you taught us. Thank you so much for bringing out the best in us. We will truly never forget you. Because of you, we are now not just better actors and actresses but also better persons. Thank you so much for the love that you showed us.
To Ate JS, I would like to thank you for teaching us the value of work and time. Thank you for teaching us the importance of keeping our promises and how to be punctual (the hard slap you gave me is really unforgettable. haha)
To Kuya Owa, my head, our Stage Manager, thank you for teaching us the importance of sacrifice. Thank you for the late-night meetings we had, i enjoyed every bits of it. Thank you too for being a true person.
To the whole production staffs, thank you for the wonderful and memorable production. I truly enjoyed it. We worked so hard and the result, like what i said, is worth it.
I love you people! I love TEATRO TOMASINO! :]
Labels: Friends, Happiness, Life, School, Teatro
on 9:12 PM
Monday, February 18, 2008
Just Friends
I care about you more than ever
However, I'm not planning to tell her how I feel. I am pretty much satisfied with us being just friends.
Sunday, January 27, 2008
Missing the guy i used to be
-Smallville
Has anyone ever told you, you changed? Like, you are not who you used to be. That it seems they do not know you anymore? And the worst part is, they told you that you were so much better before? A friend of mine actually told me those words and I actually didn't believe in her, not until the day I felt my life is starting to become different than before.
When i think about comparing my life now and my life before, I always end up comparing high school and college life. Because as a matter of fact, there are lots of dissimilarity between the two.
I can describe high school as the highlight of my life. Those were the times when I get what I wanted, I can choose whoever I wished to be and do everything I always wanted to do. I was like this really great person whom anyone could actually depend on, someone who people look up to, someone who is a lot better than who I am now. But of course everything perishes... everything changes.
Before, I can talk to people without shyness or without being intimidated. Though I have some flaws, those really don't bother me at all. But things started to change when I entered college. I now see how imperfect I am. And another thing is that, skin problems are all over my face. Then my sickness got worse. It's really depressing most of the time.
Also, some old friends are asking me what happened to me, why I got thinner and why my skin problem is getting terrible. Those issues make me sick. I just smile whenever they ask me those ugly questions but the truth is, it hurts like hell.
A new friend told me that I should not focus on my outward appearance. He also told me that he once felt the same way but he managed to throw those feelings away because he now knows what's more important. But I guess it's not that easy. Especially when I think that everything used to be okay... even perfect.
Moreover, I know I am also not doing great in school. I'm kind of failing some subjects due to some reasons. And man, I was not like this before. School used to be on my top priorities. I can still remember how I do everything just to have the best grades and be one of the top students in my class. But now, I am like this stupid guy who always worries not because he is going to have just a good and not the best grade but if he is going to pass or not.
Attitude is another issue. I can see that these days, I am becoming more and more lazy, I do not set my priorities and I'm always moody.
Sometimes, I feel that I am becoming horrible. That I am really a big ugly person now. And that feeling sucks.
But I guess all I need is time to make everything go back to its old state and just be strong to deal with everything. Also, I think I need to be more optimistic than ever so I can have a peace of mind.
I hardly do not know what these changes could bring more. But I do hope it will be okay soon.
Labels: Change, Friends, Life, Problems, School
Sunday, January 6, 2008
For it makes the ride worthwhile
I was never open about any topics that would lead to talking about love or relationships. In fact, I used to say it's an 'icky stuff'. I also once thought that love is a bad thing... or at least that's what telenovelas show. You know, they always show that love can give you endless pain, make you sacrifice even those that are important to you and make you a bad person. It's always like that. Well that was until the day I fell in love for the first time... for real.
Like any other boy, I also had a bunch of crushes. And I tell you, even though those were just some pseudo-love feeling, it got me spending a lot of money. I bought gifts for my crushes, not really expensive ones but those actually waned my allowance. But then, it always doesn't end up well. It's either my feelings for those girls suddenly disappear or they unexpectedly find their real prince charming (whom sometimes my best buds). And because of that, I didn't think that I would ever find someone that's really for me. Also, it kept me believing on what those TV shows tell.
And then one day, I met a girl. She was really different from other girls I used to like. I honestly can't explain why I think of her that way but from that moment, I knew I was in love. And since then I realized that though love can give us unwanted experiences, it can too give us the happiest feelings and emotions that would definitely take your breath away.
If you want to know what happened with that girl and me, unfortunately, it also didn't end up that well. But still, I don't have any grudge on what had happened. It made me understood what really love is. And all I can do is to be grateful that it happened. Because I know someday I'll be able to meet that girl who would love me as much as I love her.
So now, I'm kinda open with that topic. As a matter of fact, I'm currently helping some friends deal with it. And it really feels so good when you know you could help them. I just wish everything would end up well.
Saturday, June 16, 2007
A New Beginning
It was my 4th day in class today. I really don't know if my past few days in that University is exciting and fun or NOT.
There are things that really make me think that it was a big mistake to go and study at the place. But then, there are also things that make me feel to stay there like forever.
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
4 Wonder Years
"I am a part of all that I met."
-Alfred Lord Tennyson
As I went upstairs to our room, I suddenly heard a familiar scream... "Gwapo!". I easily recognized that those were my classmates screaming. Hell! I missed that label. Only 50 persons call me that. And they're my beloved classmates.
After I heard them call me, I hurriedly went downstairs again since they were all in Science Building and not in our old room. Then I hastily helped them cover some old visuals and diorama 'cause I thought our last year adviser will give me my diploma as soon as I finish my work. But then she didn't give it right away for some reasons I really don’t know. So I had a very long time to chat with my classmates again.
It's great seeing them all again. Well, not all actually since some weren't able to come. But those that were there yesterday, I really had so much fun talking and laughing with them again like the old times. Oh man! I really missed those times when we will all just talk and laugh together until our next subject teacher comes. The topics were really not important as long as it's funny and we all know it. Haha... it’s such a good feeling remembering those stuffs.
Wow...now I really miss them all. I do miss all the wacky stuffs we usually, all the jokes, the games, the talk...everything!
Before leaving the school, I looked at our old classroom. It made me smile. It reminded me that it's the place where I spent almost 12 hours of my life 5 days a week with the people I learned to love as my own family.
Now we will live our separate lives again but I'm sure we'll all... I mean ALL... meet again after 10 years. That's our promise. We will keep it.
-Balayan, Batangas-
before my G. Kalikasan Pageant Night
-Jill's House-
first shooting for our Movie Project
-Cavite National High School-
Graduation Day
-Cavite National High School-
After our Grad
-Montano Hall-
Our Last Outing Together
Thursday, May 17, 2007
Happy 18th!
My friends and I went to SM Bacoor yesterday to celebrate Anna May's 18th birthday. When we arrived in the mall, we immediately bought her a cake and ate it right away in the food court since they were already craving for it and couldn’t wait any longer. Then, we surprised her with a birthday program that we held inside the karaoke room. We danced, sang, and acted like retarded people. Haha x]
After that, some of us went shopping (honestly I didn't since I just brought enough money 'cause they didn't even tell me that they're going to shop after the celebration). And since we were already in the mall, I did my favorite thing… put on some perfume testers. Man! Some of Bench's colognes and perfumes were really awesome although some smells like isopropyl alcohols. Haha
We also had this long photoshoot inside the mall. We even bothered to ask some people that passed by to take us pictures. Luckily, all those people whom we asked agreed to help. But, there was a guy who refused our plea… he thought we were asking him to take him a picture. LMFAO :]
All in all, we really had fun yesterday. And the fact that the people you are with are your true friends who have the same faith and standards as yours made it more enjoyable. However, it could have been more fun if our other friends were there but they weren't able to come for some reasons.
Now, I am wondering when we're gonna do that again since classes will be starting next month. But I do hope we'll do that again soon. And I also do hope that our other friends will be able to come in our next hang outs.
