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Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Trust me, this is true

"To be trusted is a greater compliment than being loved."

- George MacDonald

I was watching a TV series earlier and there was this scene where the two leads are on the top of a building, standing on the edge as if they were going to jump off. The scene suddenly changed, showing the two leads embracing each other, moving slowly to avoid any unwanted circumstances that might happen (like falling off the building). So yeah, you can call it a romantic moment. However, my mind is not on that lovely view (as some might call it) but on to that thought that they might actually fall if they'll just move one more step onto that edge. I'm acrophobic so that scene was honestly breathtaking for me. I was scared to death as if I'm one of the leads there. And then I wondered, how did they manage to do such scene. Why did they allow themselves to do a life-threatening act? But eventually, I was also the one who answered my question. I told myself that surely they trust each other that no one between them will ever do a crazy move while standing up there. And most probably, they also trusted their director whom they know will never let anything bad happen to them. So there, I realized that it was all about trust. Trust which made two people do something acrophobic folks are afraid of.

"When mistrust comes in, love goes out."

-Irish Sayings

Survivor, which for me is one of the greatest reality shows that were ever made, deals greatly about trust. In that game, trust is something you should not easily give since it may cause you to get voted off the game. In the other hand, it can also be one of the reasons that could make you win the title of being the "sole survivor". Because of this, many contestants find it hard to choose whether they would trust someone or not. Though many still decides to try and believe that it is the best thing to do.

Last Friday's episode of Survivor is a clear example of giving out trust to someone who doesn't deserve it. Jason, the person I was rooting to win, got voted off the show. He too, like Ozzy, got blindsided thinking that Natalie was his trusted alliance. Again, another great player got outwitted.

It was both nice and stupid for Jason to trust her. Nice since he gave her a chance of being trusted though he barely knows her. And stupid 'cause he didn't learn any lesson from Ozzy's experience.

With what Ozzy and Jason experienced, I now wonder how many times in our lives we actually have done the same thing; trusting people who in return just cause us to regret our decision of giving them our trust.

"Trust no one unless you have eaten much salt with him."

-Cicero

I was in fourth year high school when I experienced being back stabbed by the people I once trusted. I never really thought they could tell everybody something I trusted them not to tell. It was awful. Though I must say that it hurt me a lot, I still forgave them for what they have done. But of course, something must change. After that, I told myself not to trust anyone easily anymore unless he/she truly deserves it.

"Love all, trust a few."

-William Shakespeare

Trust is a beautiful thing. It's what people mostly need in this unsure life. Once it's lost, you can hardly give or acquire it again. Trust people who you know will always be there for you, who will never let you go no matter what. And in return, never fail someone who trusts you so much.

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Hoplesss
"Hold me BRO"

Labels: Forgiveness, Life, Phobia, School, Trust, TV Contests, TV Series

Nhil on 12:14 PM

Friday, April 18, 2008
Unscripted

One thing I love about summer is that I could watch every TV show and movie that I missed during school days. It’s pretty much the best time for a couch potato to do his thing from morn ‘til night.

Though some people think that it is dumb to waste your time watching TV shows and movies, I still do believe that it helps me a lot. Those shows inspire me. They entertain me. Especially reality shows.

In line with this entry, I would like to post here two of the reality shows that’s quite addictive for me: Survivor and American Idol.

I can say that this season, Survivor: Micronesia – Fans vs Favorites, is one of my favorite Survivor installments. I never really thought it would interest me and make me go craving for another episode since the last two seasons didn't fascinate me that much. But surprisingly as the show goes on, it's becoming more and more interesting.

The only thing that sucks now is that two of my top favorites, Jonathan Penner and Eliza Orlins, already left the show. Jonathan was removed due to a said to be fatal injury that he got during an immunity challenge and Eliza got voted off for having a weak alliance and for playing the fake idol Ozzy made.

But anyway, there's still Jason and Amanda whom I can root for. Jason since he is more likely the nicest guy in the game now and because he has a great potential on winning immunity challenges. Also, he was the last alliance of Eliza who is, like what I said earlier, my favorite gal in this season. And Amanda because she is loyal and honest.

Honestly right now, I'm really, really ecstatic. I think this week is the best week in Survivor Micronesia since Oscar "Ozzy" Lusth got finally voted out. YEAH! Even though he had the real idol, he wasn't able to play it since he thought he was safe. Meaning, he got blindsided. And this is because of Parvati's great plan, though I must admit that I also don't like her because she's the reason why Eliza got voted off. Well anyway, (just for now) hurrah to Parv!

Ozzy at first is really cool. As a matter of fact, I was a fan of him during the start of this season. He used to be a great guy; he's strong, smart and played the game very well. However, as time went by, he became obnoxious and arrogant. I also recently found out that he did porn for playboy before which... made me really not a fan of him anymore.

Now, I'm really excited what would happen and who would go next week. I'm guessing it'll be James for he is a big threat. But i don't know, maybe they'll gonna surprise us again and vote somebody whom we don't expect to be voted off.

Aside from Ozzy being voted out, another thing that made this week a "great reality show" week is that Kristy Lee Cook (at long last) got eliminated. Yehey!

I honestly don't hate Kristy but I just don't want her to stay longer there now. I just think that the others who got eliminated deserve to stay longer than she did. Especially Michael Johns. And talking about Michael... Oh man! I was really shocked and surprised when I read from Yahoo! that Michael got eliminated. Michale Johns elimination was as surprising as Clay Aiken and Chris Daughtry's.

With only six contestants left, it's quite hard to choose among them for they are all good. But I guess I'm into Brooke White, Carly Smithson and David Cook since I believe they have the greatest, unique voices this season.

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Prawninator
"Potato"

Labels: TV Contests

Nhil on 8:51 PM

Monday, March 31, 2008
Our search for Happiness

"We all live with the objective of being happy; our lives are all different and yet the same."

-Anne Frank

One thing I'm very sure about people is that, everyone in this world wants to be happy. Of course we do. Who doesn't? We usually do every possible way to find that happiness that will make our lives better and more colorful. We try new things, make new things or look for new things.

However, sometimes we do unnecessary things that we think are the best to feel happy although the truth is, they will just drown us into the depths of disappointment and sorrow. Also, there are times in our lives when we, ourselves, are the one who do not realize that we could actually feel happy every time... if we just allow ourselves to.

In our Guidance Office in school, there is a wall where you could write anything (by using post-its) that would make you happy. I think it's made so that we could actually think about what we really want in our lives. And by knowing what those are, we could eventually think of present and future actions that we need to make in order for those things to happen. I can't exactly remember what I wrote in there for the first time but I think it's shallow since I took it off away after a few weeks. But after that, I wrote there again something that at least much better than the first. I wrote, "Finding my Princess". As a result, our Guidance Adviser asked me if I already found her. But obviously I said I still haven't since that's the truth. Then my classmates looked at me. They were surprised to read something like that from me. Yeah, I don't really talk about that thing. I mean, love. Well, I do talk about it but only occasionally. But that time, I guess I just really wrote there the truth. That finding my future eternal companion will make me happy.

"How many times do we look for our happiness at a distance in
space or time rather than right now, in our own homes, with our own families and friends."
-James E. Faust

Have you ever heard the story about Ali Hafed? The man who used to be one of the wealthiest Persian but sold all his possessions because of his search for a precious gem?

The story goes like this…

There was a man named Ali Hafed. He owned many lands in Persia. He was really wealthy and rich. He also has a lovely family that makes him feel everything is perfect in his life.

One day, there was an old priest who came and spoke to Ali. He told Ali that if he'll be able to find a diamond as big as his thumb in a river full of white sands, he will surely get richer.

So, Ali then sold all his possessions to travel around the world to look for that diamond and even left his family with his neighbor's care.

Ali traveled for many years but was unable to find what he was looking for. He suffered a lot of pain and suffereings during his travel.

Meanwhile, the man whom bought Ali's lands went walking with his camel one day to Ali's old garden. While letting his camel to drink in the stream, he suddenly was surprised to see something glittering below the water. He reached for it and saw a very beautiful gem. Later, it was revealed that it was the gem Ali was looking for all his life.

If only Ali didn't travel around the world and sold his possession, he could have been more rich and wealthy than before.

The story tells us much about what's happening in our world today. Sometimes, we try to look for something far from us just to achieve the happiness we want. Unfortunately, what we don't realize is that, the things that could actually make us feel the true happiness are already in front of us. These are our family, our friends, and the gospel and love of God.

"Happiness is the object and design of our existence; and will be the end thereof, if we pursue the path that leads to it; and this path is virtue, uprightness, faithfulness, holiness, and keeping all the commandments of God"

-Joseph Smith

Since the beginning of time, God has this wonderful plan for all of us. He calls it the Plan of Happiness. But because of our choices, we often times do not receive the blessings of this said plan. Now, what we should only do is to direct ourselves in the right path in order to gain that happiness. And this is by being obedient to the commandments of the Lord.

"The happiest people don't necessarily have the best of
everything. They just make the best of everything."

-Martin Seligan

Being happy isn't really that hard. In fact, there are lots of things that could make us feel the joy. Some of these are just simple things like being with the people we love, seeing the innocent faces and smiles of babies, listening to uplifting music, praying every time and feeling that God is always there to guide us and help us and many more.

We don't need to be one of the most successful men or women in history just to be happy. We just need to be optimistic and appreciate the littlest things.

See the best in everything. Make the best in everything as the quote above says. If we do these, we will surely adore life.

Like the cliche goes, happiness is a choice. It's only we who could help ourselves be happy whatever life brings.

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Photo by:
MotyPest
"Laugh and Tears"

Labels: Choices, God, Happiness, Life, Optimism

Nhil on 8:52 PM

Friday, March 14, 2008
Beautiful, with or without them

"There are always challenges at every stage in our life, overcoming them is what life is all about"

- Dr. N. Sai Bhaskar Reddy

I bet nobody could ever say that life is easy. Because in fact, life is pretty much full of trials, problems, temptations and hardships. And often times, we find ourselves confuse and troublesome for what life brings.

As we get older, we realize that life is not all about candies, toys and cartoons. That every day won't be a sunny day. And that crying is really not the best solution if we want something.

Life is really not simple as we thought it was. However, life is also not that difficult especially if we do our best in everything we do.

"Life kicks you around sometimes. It scares you and it beats you up. But there's one day when you realize you're not just a survivor. You're a fighter. You're tougher than anything life throws your way. And you are."

- One Tree Hill

It has been said that there's always something that could ruin the moments in our lives. But I guess it's still in our hands if we're going to allow it to destroy us. We always have the power to be joyful, even if a situation itself is sorrowful.

There are times in our lives when we wish that in the future, we'll have days without problems and trials. However, what we don't realize is that these said difficulties that we experience are in fact, helpful to us. We just don't see how they make us a better person. This is because these troubles make us stronger. They cause us to be conscious that we are braver and tougher than we think we are. And lastly, they help us appreciate the happiest moments in our lives.

"We will encounter problems for the rest of our lives but there will be nothing we can't manage."

- Jay McGraw

If we just look at the brighter side, we could see that life is really beautiful, with or without problems.

Labels: Beauty, Life, Optimism, Problems

Nhil on 7:52 AM

Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Solution to my Problems, Answer to my Questions

"If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall be given him."

- James 1:5

Lately, I've been having tough days. School is making me really busy. Sometimes, I can't even do the things that I should prioritize more. Like for example, have some time for my family, read the scriptures or attend church activities. That's why I think I'm becoming less spiritual these past few days... or even months.

I've been also dealing with lots of problems. And most of the time, I think I'm all alone. That no one could help me. But that feeling is wrong. No sooner, I realized that someone is always there for me. Aside from my family and friends, there's someone I could always depend on no matter what happen. And that's our dearest Heavenly Father.

Praying was never a hard thing for me to do. It has always been my first action whenever I experience hardships in life. Every time I pray, I feel closer to our Father in Heaven. I feel safe, secure, and loved.

I know He always listens to and answers our prayers. He's there whenever we need Him. He helps us with our problems. Though often times, we're the one who choose to step away from His presence, Heavenly Father is still there for us.

Even though I'm becoming less and less spiritual these days, I know that Heavenly Father will always be there to guide me and make my testimony strong again if I just ask for his help.

Our dearest Father in Heaven knows what we want even before we ask Him in prayers. But He will not give us what we want unless we ask Him personally through prayers. He wants us to depend on Him. He wants us to always remember Him.

Praying never failed me. Praying has always been and will always be the solution to my problems and the answer to my questions.

Labels: Church, Faith, God, Life, Love, Optimism, Prayer, Problems, School, Spiritual, Testimony

Nhil on 8:34 AM

Monday, February 18, 2008
Just Friends

Even though we are not together
I care about you more than ever

-Gary R. Hess

I'm starting to like someone. However, I'm not really sure why but I guess it's because she's nice to me, she makes me laugh and well, she's always there when I need someone to talk to.

However, I'm not planning to tell her how I feel. I am pretty much satisfied with us being just friends.

Labels: Friends, Life, Love

Nhil on 6:54 PM

Sunday, January 27, 2008
Missing the guy i used to be

"Life is about change. Sometimes it's painful, sometimes it's beautiful. But most of the time it's both."

-Smallville

Has anyone ever told you, you changed? Like, you are not who you used to be. That it seems they do not know you anymore? And the worst part is, they told you that you were so much better before? A friend of mine actually told me those words and I actually didn't believe in her, not until the day I felt my life is starting to become different than before.

When i think about comparing my life now and my life before, I always end up comparing high school and college life. Because as a matter of fact, there are lots of dissimilarity between the two.

I can describe high school as the highlight of my life. Those were the times when I get what I wanted, I can choose whoever I wished to be and do everything I always wanted to do. I was like this really great person whom anyone could actually depend on, someone who people look up to, someone who is a lot better than who I am now. But of course everything perishes... everything changes.

Before, I can talk to people without shyness or without being intimidated. Though I have some flaws, those really don't bother me at all. But things started to change when I entered college. I now see how imperfect I am. And another thing is that, skin problems are all over my face. Then my sickness got worse. It's really depressing most of the time.

Also, some old friends are asking me what happened to me, why I got thinner and why my skin problem is getting terrible. Those issues make me sick. I just smile whenever they ask me those ugly questions but the truth is, it hurts like hell.

A new friend told me that I should not focus on my outward appearance. He also told me that he once felt the same way but he managed to throw those feelings away because he now knows what's more important. But I guess it's not that easy. Especially when I think that everything used to be okay... even perfect.

Moreover, I know I am also not doing great in school. I'm kind of failing some subjects due to some reasons. And man, I was not like this before. School used to be on my top priorities. I can still remember how I do everything just to have the best grades and be one of the top students in my class. But now, I am like this stupid guy who always worries not because he is going to have just a good and not the best grade but if he is going to pass or not.

Attitude is another issue. I can see that these days, I am becoming more and more lazy, I do not set my priorities and I'm always moody.

Sometimes, I feel that I am becoming horrible. That I am really a big ugly person now. And that feeling sucks.

But I guess all I need is time to make everything go back to its old state and just be strong to deal with everything. Also, I think I need to be more optimistic than ever so I can have a peace of mind.

I hardly do not know what these changes could bring more. But I do hope it will be okay soon.

Labels: Change, Friends, Life, Problems, School

Nhil on 7:13 PM

Thursday, January 17, 2008
And I've seen their faces and i was like WOAH

"The only kind of person I would like to be is the kind of person who likes to be me."

-Bushidozen

I was able to watch Eat Bulaga last Monday and good thing I did. And it's because the contestants of their "Dabarkads, you are on the spot" were those fantastic dubbers of soaps and anime. You see, I always wonder how those dubbers look like. I just wanna see how true "great voice = good looks" is. :]

It was really funny at the start of the show. They were like talking using the lines of the characters they dub[bed]. But one thing that really made me say " Oh woah! What the hell... that was extraordinary! " was seeing Ash's [from Pokemon] dubber. But before the spoil... Come on! Tell me the truth. You also think that Ash's voice is really both boyish and childish, right? Well, surprise! Surprise! The dubber is a girl! And man, she is really sweet. If I remember correctly, her name is Klarisa. Heck! I really want to meet that girl in person. She's now my " girl on TV " crush. Lol

Sadly, she's not the one who got the Php25K so she wasn't able to be the jackpot prize contestant. Anyway, there was another pretty girl who dubbed some anime too, girl this time, but I didn't get her name. Too bad.

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Yesterday, I watched the premier night of American Idol season 7. They held their first audition in Phila and as usual, they had a bunch of "auditioners" (uhm ok, there's no such word. But hey! This is my blog. I can make my own dictio. Haha). And the wackos are getting worse than ever. But yeah, it was fun watching them. On the contrary, there were also people who really have a talent in singing. One even sounds like Clay Aiken. Right now, I'm looking forward to it's second part that will be shown tonight.

One last thing... Simon seems to be a little kind this season. :]

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Labels: Life, TV Contests

Nhil on 4:34 PM

Sunday, January 6, 2008
For it makes the ride worthwhile

"Life’s greatest happiness is to be convinced we are loved."

-Victor Hugo

I was never open about any topics that would lead to talking about love or relationships. In fact, I used to say it's an 'icky stuff'. I also once thought that love is a bad thing... or at least that's what telenovelas show. You know, they always show that love can give you endless pain, make you sacrifice even those that are important to you and make you a bad person. It's always like that. Well that was until the day I fell in love for the first time... for real.

Like any other boy, I also had a bunch of crushes. And I tell you, even though those were just some pseudo-love feeling, it got me spending a lot of money. I bought gifts for my crushes, not really expensive ones but those actually waned my allowance. But then, it always doesn't end up well. It's either my feelings for those girls suddenly disappear or they unexpectedly find their real prince charming (whom sometimes my best buds). And because of that, I didn't think that I would ever find someone that's really for me. Also, it kept me believing on what those TV shows tell.

And then one day, I met a girl. She was really different from other girls I used to like. I honestly can't explain why I think of her that way but from that moment, I knew I was in love. And since then I realized that though love can give us unwanted experiences, it can too give us the happiest feelings and emotions that would definitely take your breath away.

If you want to know what happened with that girl and me, unfortunately, it also didn't end up that well. But still, I don't have any grudge on what had happened. It made me understood what really love is. And all I can do is to be grateful that it happened. Because I know someday I'll be able to meet that girl who would love me as much as I love her.

So now, I'm kinda open with that topic. As a matter of fact, I'm currently helping some friends deal with it. And it really feels so good when you know you could help them. I just wish everything would end up well.

Labels: Friends, Life, Love

Nhil on 4:08 PM

Monday, December 31, 2007
New start on old habits

Be always at war with your vices, at peace with your neighbors, and let each new year find you a better man.

-Benjamin Franklin

Today is December 31, 2007, my last chance to post an entry for this year. And it's really quite hard to write a year ender entry since a lot of thoughts are running on my mind now. But whenever i start writing, all those thoughts seem to go and disappear. It's kinda weird but it always happens to me. Bummer...

So how was 2007 for me? To tell you that truth, it's not that easy. However, i can still say that it had been a great year even though i experienced tougher problems, issues and responsibilities.

One thing that made this year ok for me is that I graduated last March with flying colors. I wasn't really expecting it though i hoped for it. And i was really happy it did come true because i know i made my family proud.

Also, i got myself entered in one of the most prestigious university in the Philippines. There, i met new people that i know i would always cherish. Honestly, at first i didn't expect that i would like them. If you have read my post entitled "A new beginning", i stated there that "it was a big mistake to study there". But as days went by, i realized i was wrong. They were such lovely people. I think i just had that "my-life-is-perfect-in-high-school-and-i-don't-want-to-move-on" impression. Yeah it was really lame. But atleast i managed to throw that idea away. :]

This year, i learned so many things. I've learned more about love, trust, honesty, faith, life, et al. Most of them i learned through tragic and happy experiences and some are from the TV Series that i've watched. Yeah, you read it right. TV SERIES. Well they're educational too you know! haha.

What i just don't like about this year are those wrong decisions i have made. And the sad part is, i think i'm making "choosing wrong decisions" as a hobby. There are a lot of things i can't take back anymore. And it's really depressing. Another thing is, i usually practice procrastination. I hate it, but i still do it.

So now, i just wish 2008 would be a better year for me. I hope i'll be able to improve all the aspects of my life. Also, i hope i'll be more optimistic than before and be able to set my priorities more clearly.

Happy new year to you!

Labels: Family, Life, School

Nhil on 5:08 PM

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Tuesday, April 29, 2008 Trust me, this is true

Friday, April 18, 2008 Unscripted

Monday, March 31, 2008 Our search for Happiness

Friday, March 14, 2008 Beautiful, with or without them

Wednesday, February 27, 2008 Solution to my Problems, Answer to my Questions

Monday, February 18, 2008 Just Friends

Sunday, January 27, 2008 Missing the guy i used to be

Thursday, January 17, 2008 And I've seen their faces and i was like WOAH

Sunday, January 6, 2008 For it makes the ride worthwhile

Monday, December 31, 2007 New start on old habits